I wish I could say that I accomplished all of my goals.
1) ENJOY MYSELF.
2) Revel in the beauty of the movement of my body.
But it wasn't. And now I am just freaking disappointed that it didn't go the way I wanted it to go. I had high hopes for today and while it was not terrible and I did PR
2:44:47 (last PR, Zooma Half, April 2011)
2:41:11 (new PR, today, Jan 2013)
I am still feeling sorry for myself that I didn't come in under 2:40. It was definitely within my reach but didn't happen.
What if I had followed my plan and NOT start off so fast, ignoring my typical run/walk for 0.75 miles? WHY OH WHY did I do this to myself? I run/walk 95% of the time with my training runs and have GREAT success with it, starting off slow and then getting faster with each mile. Miles 1-3 are always my hardest and slowest during training runs but then it gets better. I did not do that today- I started off too fast, stopped to stretch, picked up the pace on miles 4-6 to *catch* up from the time spent stretching and then continued a downward spiral of trying to *catch up* and never ever catching up again. Damn.
What if I hadn't stopped to stretch? Twice, in fact? To the tune of 4+ minutes of non-running time? If I had followed the plan that I had outlined in my head pre-race, I would have done a warm-up of 1-2 super-slow miles, stretched heavily and then been on my merry way at the start of the race. Double Damn. I am totally kicking myself right now.
What if I had just run through the water stops instead of slowing down to get water? I DIDN'T need it. I was wearing my Fuelbelt and had plenty of water. I didn't need any for a long time yet I still stopped at every water station.....just in case. Damn.
What if I had taken less walk breaks? When I finally started run/walk at Mile 1, I did 1:1 for a few miles, then progressed to 2:1 for miles 4-7. I moved up to 3:1 for a bit then 4:2 for a little while then whatever the last two miles to get me to the finish line. WHY did I NOT do what I KNOW works for me? WHY?!!!!!!!!!
Why didn't I trust my training and go with my gut? With my plan?
Rookie mistake. Yes, I know this was #5 for me, BUT I made a litany of rookie mistakes.
Anyone depressed yet? I promise to turn my frown upside down. I just needed to get all that *stuff* off my chest so that I can get to the positive.
I want to do another half marathon. Yes, really I do. That's a good thing since I am already signed up for the Zooma Half on March 23, ha ha.
I need to be serious about my training. NO half-assing workouts. No skipping workouts. Less *rest* days. More cross-training, strength training, core work, and yoga. Follow an actual training plan. Yeah, really. I didn't follow ANY training plan for this half- I didn't even look at one. Maybe that was the problem! See, I'm OK....I am making jokes at my own expense.
I need to let go of the disappointment and ENJOY the fact that I PR'd with an average 12:15 m/m for 13.1 miles. HEY- I PR'D, I PR'D, I PR'D!!!! Woot woot!!!!
Use the mistakes of today to be better prepared for the next one. Not every race will go the way I think it should go. That's just the way it is. I need to *get over myself*, put my *big girl panties on* and get to work.
Also, next time, remind myself of this......and then laugh about it.
It's time to turn this frown upside down and get back to work.